"There is no remedy for love but to love more."
"A gentle answer turns away wrath but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15:1
That is who I want to be. Constantly loving people and never getting angry or riling other people. I don't succeed, but I try. That's how I want people to see me. That girl who loves on everybody. That girl who is slow to anger. That girl who reflects Jesus. That's really who I want to be. Just one big loving mirror. And I fail miserably. Instead people see the girl who yells at her siblings and lies and steals and commits a thousand sins. But I try. I do try. My biggest problem is that I want the spotlight. I have a hard time sharing the stage with Jesus. Excuse me, sir. I want to be the one everyone is cheering. No, Amanda, no. It's about Him. It's always been about Him. He's a better person to be in the spotlight anyway. Put me under those lights and all my failures are there to see. Hide me under Jesus and I'm pure as snow. Because that's how awesome he is. He died for me. Craziness. Who would want to do that? My God apparently. I can't wrap my head around that. But I am so grateful.
I thought when I started this that I would be writing something about loving people and being gentle and soft spoken when others are angry. And in the end I wrote random thoughts basically. The central point being Jesus. Because he deserves to be the center of everything in my life. And I am trying so hard to keep it that way. I often fail and try to put myself back in the center, but I am trying.