I took a small break from blogging because of a lack of anything inspiring to write and today it dawned on me that I don't need to be inspiring so I'm just going to write. Hopefully I won't bore you to death. :)
Yesterday I was in an incredibly bad mood all day long. Now I do have some excuses that I would love to make. I was up at 6, and out of the house from around 7 AM until 9:30 PM except for maybe a brief ten minutes I was at home between two activities. I was also having bad day health-wise and was in considerable pain. And then also I had expected my day to go much differently and every new twist took me by surprise. For instance, on Wednesday night I was told the Bible Study I babysit for was cancelled for Thursday morning so I thought I'd have a morning off to do something relaxing...and instead I'm informed that I have been offered to another Bible Study that meets on Thursday mornings to fill in for one week. First of all, it took me by surprise and changed the plans laid out in my head. Secondly, I was upset that I wasn't asked before hand. And then on Thursday, as we went about our normal Thursday activities I was informed that I would be doing something late in the evening that I don't usually do. And I balked. Really, people? Ever since I first left the house around 7 I have been dying to go home and now I'm told I have to stay out even longer. GRR! And I was out of the house for most of yesterday and the day before and why on earth would anyone torture me in this way? So yes, I was in a bad mood. A very bad mood. But honestly, I had no reason to be.
Yes my plans were a little thrown out of balance and upset. But that pretty much happens daily when you live with Jesus. He is always changing something about your day and sending you little surprises. Also, although I had been upset about my new babysitting gig, I shouldn't have been. I adore children, and I had a great time with the three young ones I got to watch. They brightened up my whole day just by being. :) Why I would be upset about being given a chance to be with the children I love so much I have no idea. I am still baffled by my frustration from yesterday because it seemed so out of character for me. I really am not used to being so upset about things of no consequence. Also, I had fun at the activity that kept me out until 9:30. I had been dreading everything about yesterday, and when each event actually occurred I enjoyed myself immensely.
What I learned? I have anger issues. Oh wait, that wasn't the point. What I learned? I need to stop worrying about all the details of my day and just live life as God sends it to me. And do it with a smile. I know He means everything for my good, even the trials. He's shaping me into what He wants me to be. I need to be thankful and grateful for every moment of my life, even when it goes a direction I do not expect. Each and every day is an immense blessing, so why would I not be joyful and praising Jesus? Where is the room for anger and frustration when you are constantly thanking your Jesus for the life He has blessed you with?