How I Feel About The Bad Guys

Hello, people! I hope life has been as amazing for all of you as it has been for me!

I don't have anything specific to say, actually. I just feel like writing, and here is as good a place as any to do so. :) I only have two more days and I will be finished with Chemistry. That is a random fact, but it gives me joy so instead of bursting with happiness I am going to share everything that has been building up the pressure inside of me. I am going to begin playing on a volleyball team in the coming week and I am so excited. That is by far my favorite sport! :)

I have once more been reading aloud to my little sister. It has been a while and I have so missed this! Our choice of book? North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell. I love this story so much! I am not going to lie, Mr. Thornton has quite overtaken Mr. Darcy in my fancy. :) He is right up there with Mr. Rochester for me. (I suppose you should know Mr. Rochester has been my favorite man for quite a long time) I have come to the conclusion that men with flaws and pain and pasts have far more appeal to me than those that are near perfection or have pleasant, easy lives. I do not know why this is. All I know is that it is true. I have never taken the time to analyze this thought before. I suppose part of it is that I want to help them, I want to soothe their pain and comfort them. Another part may be that they are very human, so I can relate to them. I always find myself drawn to the misunderstood in all stories that I read and watch. And also, I often find myself drawn to villains, because I want to help them and bring them to the light. Whenever I watch Nicholas Nickleby I am forever saddened by the death of Uncle Ralph. I want someone to care for him and show him the truth and I want him to go and live with the family in the end and everything to be happy and wonderful. I suppose I am too much of a dreamer at times. I want there to be someone in Star Wars to help Anakin and keep him from going wrong. I want someone to help Guy of Gisbourne and bring him to the light. (My desire for that was so strong I decided to write my own version of Robin Hood...)

I have no idea what all of these thoughts and sentences and words add up to except that I often want the impossible. I also know that if a lot of what I wish for would take place, I would ruin a bunch of stories. Where is the story of redemption if Anakin does not turn to the dark side?

That's all I've got to say...as I said, I really have no clue what any of this means. :)