Dead Computers

My computer has died.

This is a very tragic circumstance. That computer was my lifeline.

Now, when I want to write, I have to borrow someone else's computer. But that isn't the worst of it. I have to write in the open. In public. Where people can see me and possibly read over my shoulder.

Now what is so bad about that, you might ask? I post things all over the internet, I publish books...people will be reading what I write regardless. Yes, yes they will. But I get very nervous if people can read what I am WRITING. Don't ask me to explain the difference. But once it is finished I don't mind an audience. It's while it is still in progress that I freak out.

So, that is the miniscule trial I am dealing with days. (I say miniscule because it really shouldn't be a big deal. I'm very silly to be so bothered by all this)

Anyway, because my computer is sadly out of commission writing may be a little sporadic for a while. Books, blogs, anything.

What am I going to do with myself?

Go back to the old days when I use to read all the time, I suppose.

What Comes Next?

College will be starting up in about a month. I was rather enjoying my break. But I know I loved it when I was there, so I won't dread this year.

I'm actually excited about most of my classes. And I adore one of my professors, so that's a good start I think.

But the big question: What will I do when I finish at the community college?

I don't know.

I've been looking into some online options, so I can stay at home. One in particular, where I can get a BA in English and Creative Writing with an emphasis on Fiction seems very appealing to me. I guess we'll just wait and see.

The future is always so bleak to look at. Not that things don't look good, they just look...blank. It's like when I first start writing a book. It's just an empty screen, and it's almost scary how many possibilities lay before me. Yet at the same time, those possibilities are incredibly exciting and wonderful.

A Post for the Sake of Posting

I've got nothing to say.

It's very rare of me to run out of words, but it's happened.

I think I'm just very tired.

I just spent an amazing week counseling at a church camp and having the time of my life. I'm sure I have a million stories to share but I can scarcely think of any of them. I think I'm brain dead.

I don't know why I'm blogging while in this state of mind but I was feeling a bit guilty that I haven't blogged for a bit.

I'm not sure, but maybe silence was actually better than this post. :P

Hopefully in a few days I'll be back to writing Cassy's story, and get to finish editing/rewriting Always in Shadow (next month, people! Are you excited?).

Emotional Comas

It's crazy how swiftly things move sometimes. The book I am in the middle of right now is jam packed with action; something is always happening. It seems so full. It feels like so much has happened, much time must have passed.

And then I look at my timeline, and only eleven days (11 days!) have passed since the beginning of the story. Eleven days.

A lot can happen in eleven days.

Cassy's world is destroyed in one afternoon....the other ten days have been spent trying to get out of the mess.

Will she ever really get there though?

I've never written anything so dreadful and depressing and intense. My sister says she goes into an emotional coma every time I give her an update to read and comment on. That almost frightens me.

But I get super excited writing this story. Emotional comas or not, I cannot wait for it to be finished and published. I have no idea what is happening next and it's killing me! I can't wait to find out. And then I can't wait to share my discoveries with all of you. :)

Introducing: Me

So, we're going to be very vain and self-centered today.

I feel I haven't ever truly introduced myself to you, my amazing readers. I just talk about what I'm up to or how my books are coming along.

So, this is my official introduction, even if it is a bit late. :)

My name is Amanda and I love to write. Adore writing. Live and breathe writing. Eat on it. Sleep on it. Writing is my life.

Then there are children. LOVE them! :) I am quite happy to spend hours upon hours playing with/watching/being entertained by children. Children are my joy and delight.

Most important of all is Jesus. He's just my everything. End of story.

I enjoy reading immensely, which includes reading aloud to my sister or with friends. Some of my favorite books: Anything Jane Austen, Jane Eyre, The Chronicles of Narnia, North and South.

I'm also a huge fan of movies...movie marathons are quite possibly one of the best things ever invented. :)

There's not much else about me that's exciting (not that any of the above was exciting either). 

Random Facts:

I used to play softball. I was the pitcher and I thoroughly enjoyed it. :) I own two gold fish: Spot and Squishy the Second (unfortunately Squishy the First died). I am always very cold, for reason I cannot explain. My fingers and toes are made of ice.

So...that's all :)